Lucky is a word I seem to be hearing quite often. Many people use the word when referring to our son Dane. I know that when they say it they mean well and don't have any clue to the negative or even offensive weight that it carries. The word although it would seem positive to most and a good thing is become something different to me. How does one see luck in being abandoned? Lucky to have been torn from everything you knew and given to someone else? Why are adopted children lucky? Is it that their adoptive parents chose them? Is it that they spent thousands of dollars for them? Is it the love that was given to them? I know most children would rather be with their birth parents then anything else. Lucky would be to never have to know such grieving and heartache. What is lucky about a child having to endure or go through something most adults would never be able to deal with? I keep having these questions circling around in my mind. I pray I will be sensative to both Dane and Aliyah as these will be some very hard truths they will have to deal with and endure their whole lives. I pray they will know that their culture and heritage is very important to me. They have birth parents. They have adoptive parents. Their birth parents hold a very special place in my heart. Going into the adoption process you would have thought differently. I never would have thought that they would occupy my thoughts so much. I constantly wonder how they are doing and what they are like. I would love to be able to see what they look like. When people talk of their biological children so much talk is of who they look like or who they act like. I will most likely never know these things about Dane or Aliyah.
I know the only lucky one in this deal is myself. I have the opportunity of a lifetime to be able to raise these very special children. I will be able to recieve their love and attention. I will get to see them grow and develope. I am a truly blessed man. The Lord has given me a gift. It has come in the package of two very special children.
Do not be afraid, for I am with you; I will bring your children from the east and gather you from the west. ~ Isaiah 43:5 ~